lifes a bitch then u die

eeerm well im kinda in a wierd mood right now, i thought i was content and happy with myself and life but am i really happy, im not sure, i know i have good friends (i Hope) lol iv got a great family ect n im gonna be an uncle how great is that lol but im feeling a little down Do i have friends? Do people really like me for me? im constantly trying to contain myself so people dont realise that im a complete wack job haha, i have a moral by which i stand "dont care about what people think of u" but when it seems thats people only think of u in one way or another i have to be bothered, sometimes i really get the impression that would anyone really care if i was here on the world, say if i was with a group of people n i quietly slipped off i often think has anyone really realised im not there, there are times when i think about being at my own funeral, who would turn up what would people say how would i be remembered, you know what if i died tomorrow who would it affect in a profound way you know what i think apart from my family i dont think i would be a great loss to anyone and maybe occasionally i would pop in someones memory as "just a guy i once knew" The big question i want to ask myself is Have i changed anyones life in a big way or in a small way, thats what would make me happy. anyways peace x